Last night I had a dream. It’s the second dream I’ve had that included someone from the TV show The Bachelor. The first dream had JP Rosenbaum in it which made sense because I was reading about his then upcoming wedding to Ashley right before I went to bed. But tonight I dreamt about Jef Holm who I’m pretty sure I didn’t read about before bed haha.
I was sitting in my grandparent’s house with a bunch of family and “friends” when in comes Jef and two of his buddies. I pretended not to notice as I would normally do around celebrities (or guys I like in general). The family proceeded to open gifts (I guess it was Christmas or something?) and when I opened mine I was not impressed. I received a package of Army men and two sleepers for a baby. I was like, what I going to do with these? I almost started crying. I went out to the kitchen after a while to be alone and Jef came in and we had a conversation about why I got emotional from my gift. I told him my story about how my life is not going the way that I had planned it. About how I had planned on getting married when I was 25 and having kids when I was 27 which obviously never happened since I’m already 27. The baby sleepers reminded me of that. I talked about how I really want to have kids before I’m 30 which is going to be difficult since I’m already 27 and not yet married (marriage is a prerequisite for me for children). Jef basically just sat there and listened and understood. It was nice. After we were done talking we hugged and agreed that we would like to see each other again in the future.
So I effectively lost all of my website data by mistake. I’m currently going through the depression that you face when you lose your website. I’ve gone through this once before a long time ago an I remember how heart breaking it was. It’s not so bad this time because it was my own fault.
I saved my WordPress files on to my computer thinking that all the information I needed would be safe, but I think the blog posts and pages are actually saved on the MySQL database which I deleted. If anyone knows how to get that information back I would love for you to tell me. Otherwise I am starting from the beginning.
It makes me very discouraged about blogging. I almost don’t want to do it again now that I lost all my old posts. But at the same time, I would really miss my website so I’m not going anywhere. I tried to export my data before starting over but that was something that had stopped working in the WordPress platform so I couldn’t. I’m sure I could have saved the data some other way but I just didn’t investigate far enough. I’m at that point where I wish I could just go back in time and start over from the beginning before I messed everything up.
The thing I’m going to miss the most are the posts about events that I’ve gone through. My Europe trip, gone. Cuba, gone. The awesomeness that goes on in downtown Halifax, poof. Also all the recipes I had on here are no longer here. It’s extremely frustrating.
On the flip side, I’m glad this happened in January because it’s like a refresh button. I can now see my life since 2013 has started (almost). It makes me want to create a new layout. I no longer have all those useless web pages that I never updated anymore. It’s like spring cleaning. I just wish I didn’t lose EVERY page. There are always positives to look at, and I try to always focus on the positive, with this and life and general. You could get so stressed out if you just look at the bad and feel sorry for yourself.