It’s been a busy few weeks with closing a store and lots of sales starting thanks to the holidays. I’ve been working long hours trying to get the store organized and I guess it’s taking a toll on me.
Last night my brain was not working. I kept forgetting things when I was closing up shop. Thankfully I wasn’t closing alone and my coworker was catching most of my mistakes.
I am a really light sleeper so I usually cannot sleep in the same room as my snoring boyfriend. But we keep trying to see if I can get over it. Last night I don’t remember hearing him snore at all. I ran a snore app which showed that he did snore but I slept through it all. I must have also slept through my 6am alarm as well because I didn’t wake until 7:30am. I find that so hard to believe because my alarm runs for like 5 minutes and is loud.
I hear that phrase quite often while working in a retail store. Since I look younger than I actually am people think I should still be in school.
And that makes me feel bad. It makes me feel like they view me as if I’m wasting my life working in a store like that. And then I question whether that’s the truth or not.
I then tell them that I did infact go to school. I did 13 years in the public system, then another six years getting my teaching degree. After which time I realized that I didn’t like teaching.
Telling people this then makes me feel like a failure as a human being. Sure I would like to be doing more with my life. I just dont know what it is I want to do. My ideal vocation would be to stay home and raise a few kids. And maybe that will happen and I will finally feel fulfilled. But until then, I wish people would realize that what they’re saying causes me grief.