So far 2014 hasn’t been so great. By the end of last week I just wanted to escape everything. I was contemplating quitting my job because I was so stressed out. After a three day weekend I’m feeling a little better, but I’m not looking forward to my work schedule this month. It might just possibly break me. I have been scheduled for shifts that I have specifically told my manager that I do not want to work and there are also lots of days where I have to work alone for 3 or 4 hours at a time. I specifically chose to work for a company like this because I didn’t want to ever have to work alone. I understand why the schedule is terrible; we are short staffed. But it’s the managers job to make sure we have the staff that we need, and if we don’t they shouldn’t be going away on vacations so often. We’ll see how the next few months go and maybe I’ll start thinking about making a decision. I have not been as stressed out about work since moving to Alberta over two years ago. It’s really wearing me out dealing with some of these people and am getting very close to my breaking point.
People have been telling me to quit since I moved here because of the treatment I have been given. The problem is this; I don’t like change and I don’t want to have to look for a new job. I also hate abandoning people. If only I knew what I wanted to do for work or what would be the best type of job for the skills I have, it wouldn’t be so bad. But I’m just clueless right now. I think what I would like is to work for a company that has regular hours (9-5) and gets all holidays off. I wouldn’t mind working in an office sitting at a desk every day. I don’t mind mundane tasks. I’m very organized and like to have things on time (or sooner if possible). I take deadlines very seriously.
My favorite things to do at my current and past jobs have been pricing stock. Making sure my work area is stocked up so my co-workers have the resources they need. I like counting and making sure inventory is at the numbers they are supposed to be at. I like sorting papers and making sure they are in the right places so they are easy to find when they are needed. I love office supplies and often say that is why I went into teaching. When I’m in Staples (office supply store) I always wish I had a use for everything in their store. I would love to have an office of my own.
I think another thing that may be affecting my mood lately is the weather. I’m so sick of winter right now. We’ve had snow on the ground since November and it’s so cold out that I really don’t want to be there. I miss being able to walk to work and back. The sidewalks are just too icy right now. It warmed up in the beginning of January for a few days and I was so happy. But now that it’s cold again I just want to stay home and do nothing.
I made it to the appointment. YES! In case you didn’t read my last post, I had to drink 4 cups of water to prep for my pelvic ultrasound but was unable to hold it all in. Basically, I was standing at the bus stop about to burst and decided that there was no way I was going to make it there without peeing my pants. So I ran back home and barely made it to the bathroom. I think I figured out what I did wrong last week. My appointment last week was for 1:30 pm and I was worried about being too hungry by the time I got there. So I tried to keep myself full by having a smoothie in the morning. That was mistake number one. It kept me full, but I think it probably put too many liquids in my body as well. The second mistake, and maybe the biggest one, was that I started drinking too early. I wasn’t sure how long it would take me to drink a litre of water so I started about an hour and a half before I had to be done drinking.
So when I called to reschedule my appointment I was told to drink 3 cups instead of 4 cups. I practised drinking three cups over the next week to see how long it took to drink (about 30 mins). I also remembered that I had a pair of jeans in my closet that I never wear because they are too big and need a belt to keep them up. They were perfect for this situation. My appointment today was at 9 am which was a much better time because I wouldn’t have to worry as much about getting hungry. In the morning I woke up, had a banana for breakfast, then started drinking my three cups of water. When I was done drinking I was worried that I didn’t have enough liquid in me because I didn’t feel like I had to pee. If you don’t have enough liquid, they can’t do the ultrasound. I contemplated drinking more but changed my mind and decided to just go for it and see what happened. While I was on the bus I started to feel my bladder complaining and by the time I was sitting in the waiting room I was very uncomfortable, so I’m very glad I didn’t have that fourth cup of water.
They took me right at the time of the appointment and led me to a room to change. I had to take my clothes off leaving underwear and bra on. Then you put on a robe with the open part facing front. Then they take you to the room where they do the ultrasound. They put this gel on your stomach that is very warm at first, but cools as they do the ultrasound. If I had drank that extra cup of water I’m pretty sure I would have exploded while the ultrasound was being done. They put the tool right on the parts that made you need to pee so bad. The procedure probably only took about 10 minutes, then I got to go get dressed and she made sure to show me where the bathroom was haha. She said they should have results of the test in a couple days. I didn’t get to see anything that they saw and she didn’t tell me about anything that she saw. I guess I’ll just have to wait and see what they find out.